Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Things usually come easily to me and when they don't I get frustrated, which inhibits productivity. Sometimes I just need to look at things with a fresh perspective. Sometimes I need to walk away and let my mind mull over the obstacles. I did all that today. I approached the puzzle in a completely different way than I had been and when I had one last snag, I took a short breather and the solution came to me.
I love it when it finally comes together!
Speaking of a breather, though, I had more pain today. It has been just under a week since excruciating pain sent me to the doctor, who gave me a vague nod towards stress as an instigator. I wouldn't say I'm better, but I haven't had that pain again until today. Yikes. I may actually need to follow up with a real doctor. Or get rid of said stress in my life.
At least I have one less project on my to-do list.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Saturday we played at the park and visited the Illinois State Museum. The kids absolutely loved it. They wanted to go back the next day. We squeezed in a visit to Charlie Parkers Sunday before my sister's family took off. My dad facilitated the great couch swap of twenty-twelve..moving my big couch out, new couches in, and the old couch in two trips to a new home. One piece even had to be hoisted over the second floor balcony. Big stories to tell for years to come.
It was marvelous to have my sister's family and my parents in town. They both took turns seeing the play. And both nights were rain free--we didn't get rained out until Sunday. I've never done outdoor theatre before and I have really enjoyed it, but this whole process of throwing an entire show up in the air and having it land in a completely new location actually made me nervous! Me!
Everything went incredibly smoothly and we had beautiful rave revues. I have heard some really wonderful comments and I'm so humbled to be a part of something so great. I really would rather do theatre than just about anything else. I'm so happy to get the chance!
Sunday, August 19, 2012
After letting breakfast settle, I cracked open the old Saturn owner's manual to tackle this whole checking the transmission transaxle fluid chore. There was no dipstick. Usually I'm pretty good at finding dipsticks, but not so much under the hood. No dipstick to be seen.
Luckily I had several offers for help and before too long I had another pair of eyes searching for my dipstick. She could not find it either. So she used her brute strength to push my Vue out of the driveway, into the street. She followed me to the transaxle repair store and I dropped my baby off for an early morning service.
I convinced my escort to take me to the grocery store on our way home, so I even scored something to eat for the rest of the weekend. But I returned home alone. I keep looking out at the empty driveway. Sadness.
With my house in order, no where to go, nothing to buy, and no money to buy it with... I decided to keep myself occupied with cooking. I tried gluten free dinner rolls. Although I don't think they rose properly, they were still pretty damn tasty.
I found a round steak in the quick sale section of the meat department, so I finally tried a sesame beef stir fry recipe I pinned many moons ago. This was my first use of the coconut aminos (with garlic and ginger). Pretty much can't go wrong there. I ended up doubling the sauce and added arrowroot powder to thicken.
Meanwhile, I pulsed a whole head of cauliflower in my Ninja to create "rice" and microwaved it to a tender deliciousness. It was just a few days ago that I was drooling over a co-worker's Chinese food, so this treat was a long time coming. And the best news is that with no rice and no crap in it, I can breathe after dinner and don't feel all bloaty and yucky. Yay!
So now Peanut and I are watching movies. Really Peanut does his own thing and I talk to him from time to time. Sometimes he wakes up and looks at me. It turned out to be a fairly nice low key lonely Sunday.
Saturday, August 18, 2012
After a few hours my house was in tip top shape. Almost all my clothes are clean, the rugs washed, the floors vacuumed and mopped, sinks cleaned, and dust dusted. I actually sat down to cross things off the list I made yesterday to realize I had already done everything on the list.
So I pulled out those shelves I've had sitting in the basement for well over a year and applied the first coat of varnish. They are so pretty and shiny and really remind me of the old wood work in my Wisconsin house. They are going to be fabulous. That is where my project day ended.
I thought I could run to the store to pick up a few staples....if I could back out of the driveway. Well, I could not. And when I got out of the car there was a burny type smell. After a google search, I headed back out to the car to get the owner's manual and look up how to check the transmission fluid. Is that the same as transaxle? Anyhow, you have to do this procedure with the engine running. Do you have any idea how much this thought freaks me out?
So that is just the beginning. What if I need a new transmission. AKA a new car? Where the hell is that money coming from? And then if I'm lucky enough to only need a little transmission fluid, how do I get it? Walk? I really want to give up today.
Friday, August 17, 2012
So with a beautiful evening in front of me and a few brats defrosting from my freezer, the grill and my new patio table was calling my name. I prepared brats, sauerkraut, and some frozen veggies and enjoyed them at my new table in the backyard followed by a leisurely perusal of the Illinois Times.
After dinner I tackled a few cleaning projects quickly before my motivation faded. Then after sinking into my old sofa (I'm enjoying our last days together), I compiled a list for the rest of the weekend's cleaning and project extravaganza.
Tomorrow is going to start early with another morning rehearsal out at the park. (I'm going to take sun screen this time!) But that means I'll be up and motivated and ready to tackle life when I get home. I've got to whip this house into shape before the craziness of tech week is upon me. I can do it!
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Next week is going to be crazy with tech week and my family coming in from Wisconsin to occupy my non-theatre time. I'm so looking forward to seeing them, though. And my new couch. Did I mention that new couch is on the way? I was hoping to have the money to actually pay for it by the time it is delivered, but there is always some sort of financial emergency that keeps me from reaching a financial adulthood.
You ever want to just give up? I keep thinking if the Mayans were right, it's been one hell of a crazy last year. (Is it wrong to hope for the end of the world?) Maybe I just need a little vacation.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
But as the day dragged on, my mood limbo-ed lower than I would expect. By rehearsal out at the park, I was practically useless. I stumbled over my lines and didn't have the concentration to develop my character in the least. Luckily we still have a week and a half left to work on that. I'll get there. I promise...you can feel confident in those ticket purchases!
On the way home following the token speed-limit driver from Petersburg (I swear to god... every damn night!), then following the below-the-speed-limit drivers on Veterans (I swear to god... every time I try to go anywhere!), I was considering what and how much I should drink when I got home.
Due to a nearly empty fridge, I couldn't be too picky. I pulled out a leftover bottle of wine from my Southern Illinois Wine Tour. You may wonder why I have a bottle of wine in the house as I have a hard time collecting wine without drinking it. Well, it's white. And the other day when I cracked open the bottle to compliment a lovely chicken and veggie pasta alfredo I was disappointed. So, it's been open a few days, but apparently it has mellowed (or I've reached a new wine low). It is completely drinkable and it sure is doing the trick.
I'm much less crabby. I'm much less concerned about being sad. And I'm much closer to lights out. Let's do this.
Tuesday, August 14, 2012
I need an extra Peanut hug and I'm counting down the days for my Wisconsin visitors heading this way for the big play. I just love how your family has to care about you. I'm lucky to have them!
Sunday, August 12, 2012
I completed my Saturday with beautifying the yard (for the background in the picture). I cleaned up the yard, trimmed all the hedges (and my electrical cord...again), raked, and mowed. I never knew brown grass could look so tip top. I can't wait to have my own private cookout in my brand new backyard space.
After a much less active Sunday and a little pool time, I'm almost recharged and ready for a new week. Wish me luck holding onto that feeling.
Friday, August 10, 2012
So a little later in the day... actually very late in the afternoon as my lunch was severely delayed. My blood sugar was low low low. I hit up the closest food source for a chicken salad that I practically inhaled. And as my brain began to function again, I remembered I had to pick up a few things. It occurred to me I could drop them at home then try the impenetrable state fair again.
More frustration. Needless to say I did not get my press pass. It may be that I won't be state fairing this year. We will see about that. So with my state fair frustration level at an all time high, I fought the out-of-town traffic all the way home. I stepped on the gas a little each time I saw a stupid fair goer trying to cross the street in front of me. Didn't they know I just wanted to get home? I even cursed out an emergency vehicle after I had pulled off the road and it turned off the sirens and turned down a side street.
I obviously needed a little down time. I opened all the windows wide and let the glorious breeze sweep through the house. I heated up my leftover grilled brat (almost like eating fair food) and Peanut and I enjoyed a little porch time. It would have been absolutely perfect if it weren't for all the damn pedestrian and auto traffic on my street due to the damn fair.
A walk in the park. That is just what I needed. I locked up the house and put Peanut down for a nap and headed out the back door towards the park. It's been awhile since I've enjoyed a walk in the park. It has really dried up since then! It was a long walk in the park. Meaning that I was so slow. Similar to the feeling of walking through water. But I really enjoyed the lovely weather and a little time out in nature. Even if I could still hear the damn state fair noise.
Thursday, August 9, 2012
I feel like a few days of clean eating maybe enough to get me to cut out the crap and amp up the nutrient value. I think I really need it! I'm going to need all the energy I can get heading into the final weeks of rehearsal.
I've also discovered recently that something other than gluten is giving me gluteny side effects and I think it's rice. I have been purchasing much more of the pre-packaged gluten free items and most of them contain rice flour. I need to cut that out to find out if my airways clear up. I miss the joy of being able to breathe.
I've got to pull this derailed train back on the tracks! Wish me luck. Oh and happy state fair to all!